Where have I been??

......honestly who knows!!  I can't believe what a slacker I have been when it comes to my blog. Last post was October!!.....and here we are a week away from December! Unbelievable!  I am 32 weeks today!! Time is starting to really fly by now and as much as I am ready to have my body back and be able to bend and move like I used to and see my little girl and hold her, a part of me is starting to feel sad that soon this pregnancy will be over. It took us awhile to get pregnant and although our plan is to have 2 children, I also know that with fertility treatment costs and stress that our priorities may change when we have a little one to care for and this may be the first and last time I get to feel a growing baby in my belly. As much as I have been moaning and groaning about pregnancy lately (oh and believe me it's a lot!!), I feel so so lucky and blessed to get to experience being pregnant and I love snuggling on the couch with Frankie at night and having him rest his hand on my belly to feel Olivia moving around....I'll miss that. She has already proven to be a daddy's girl, kicking every time he puts his hand on my belly and not giving anyone else the privilege of feeling her. I am 100% sure that she knows when it's his hand and the other night as he was lightly massaging my belly she would curl up wherever his hand was and push herself against his hand....truly amazing and adorable.

The second weekend of November my mom through me a amazing baby shower at my house. She went above and beyond and did such a great job! My little living room was packed with 24 friends and family and we had a great time and ate yummy food.......Olivia was spoiled by everyone and according to my hubby may quite possibly be the best dressed baby in the world.  My mother-in-law got to fly out for the shower and it was very special having her get to be a part of it.

Our nursery is coming together and almost finished at this point. I promise to get some pictures of it up soon. Ellen, my mother-in-law, got us the crib bed set we wanted and I love it even more in person then I did online!

Obviously not our nursery but here's what the online picture looks like

This last Sunday we went and had some maternity photos done and we got to look at a couple as a sneak peak last night......and although my face obviously is now pregnant with the rest of me, I am very happy with how they turned out and excited to see the rest soon. Here's the little sample we got to view. 

Tonight marks the last night of our birthing classes, it has been a lot of fun and I'm so glad we decided to do them. I feel better preparded for labor after the 7 weeks of class.

And speaking of labor....it has never been something that has made me nervous at all......until now!! I find myself getting more and more anxious as the time approaches and starting to doubt myself when it comes to how tough I really am. My "plan" is a natural birth but I am also allowing myself to keep a very open mind and I am fully aware that the plan could change at any moment based on a number of variables....some of which I can't control. I have thought, until recently, that my plan would be a pretty easy goal to achieve but in the last few weeks (and after some midnight tummy cramps and discomforts) I am really questioning my ability to "tough it out".  I know that the pain is temporary and that there is a purpose to it all and that no one actually dies from the pain of labor, and that many years ago there was no option of pain medication or epidurals ........but it still scares me a little (or maybe even more than a little).  Hopefully my 3rd trimester jitters fade away in the weeks to come.