.......right?? Because I'm starting to lose my sanity.......a week of painful and regular contractions with no baby will do that to you!! My sanity is quickly being replaced with frustration and impatience......which as we all know just makes waiting that much more painful.
So the current situation with my cervix is as follows: (because who dares to not be interested in my cervix?!?!)
36 week appointment: (12-18-11) 2 cm dilated and 75% effaced !!! Pretty damn good for a first timer I thought....I was very optimistic after that news and it made the previous couple days of contractions and cramping all worth it.
37 week appointment: (12-28-11) Saw a midwife that was not interested in feeling around in my cervix....I admit I was a little insulted by her lack of enthusiasm in slapping on the rubber glove and KY but since I had been mostly contraction free and feeling pretty good that week, I decided to let it slide (no pun intended).
So before I give you the current stats.....at this point I can honestly say that I have been pregnant since last year. I have been having painful, patterned, and regular contractions for the better part of the week. There was even one occasion where I was "sure" that we would be ending up in labor and delivery within the next 24 hours and Frankie and me made sure we were packed and ready.....that didn't happen.
38 week appointment: YESTERDAY (1-4-12) 3 1/2 cm dilated and 90% effaced and had my membranes stripped to get things going.......my doctor said I'm "on the launching pad", "1/2 a cm from active labor" and finished with "could be tonight, could be tomorrow, but I would be surprised if you made it to next week". I almost cried I was so happy to hear that news!! I know this little one is comfy and warm, and protected in my uterus......but my body just hurts, and the contractions are keeping me up at night and teasing me like crazy and I'm not good at waiting and we are both so so so ready to meet her!!!
So here we are the next day.....I got maybe 2 hours of sleep last night due to frequent contractions and cramping and it was broken up into 20 min increments. Yesterday after my appointment I walked, I bounced on my yoga ball, I walked some more..........yes we did "that" too......and today I'M STILL PREGNANT. Still pregnant and still working. I had more than one (more than 2, 3 or 4 actually) co-workers tell me they are surprised to see me here today.
"I did NOT expect to see YOU today!"
"Wow, you're STILL here???"
"You haven't had that baby yet?!?!"
......listen b**ches, I'm none to pleased to see any of you either!! And you all have to put up with me as long as I have to walk around with my 40 pound uterus (because that's where every gained pound is, the fact that my ass looks twice it's pre-pregnancy size is a optical illusion!!)
I'm trying to keep busy. I'm trying to concentrate on things other than labor, but the truth is I'm finding it next to impossible. The diaper bag is in the car, our bag is in the car, the laundry is all caught up, the house has been cleaned and cleaned again....and again. I think maybe if I do something drastic, like leave a expired milk jug on the counter, un-rinsed (gasp!), or maybe take the camera out of the bag, that is when it will probably finally happen but the "Holly" in me just won't let me do it because not being prepared will make me even more crazy than waiting. So I guess I have no choice to keep waiting.
Whenever you're ready Olivia..........
