I feel....NOTHING!

So today is officially 8 dpiui ("days past IUI" for you rookies) and I feel nothing! For about the first 5 days after my IUI I was so so so bloated, so so so tired.....  (for example: we went to a friends last weekend on Saturday night to watch the UFC fight, at the request of my hubby, and there was a very FULL and very LOUD house full of people and there I was falling asleep on the couch)  ......and feeling so so not normal. I was consistently running a fever everyday but no signs of being "sick", huge boobs, HUGE bloated tummy, and a touch of narcolepsy. Then I woke up on Wednesday and ........NOTHING.  I felt great! Had a ton of energy, clothes fitting wonderful with no more 4 month pregnant tummy.

Feeling good has never been so disappointing.  Because I'm sure pregnancy should feel....I don't know, like something right?  I mean shouldn't I be throwing up on myself or running to the bathroom to pee every 5 mins, or eating rocky road and pickle sundaes?? I know that's not realistic and I know sooooo many people don't really "feel" pregnant until a little later but I have always imagined when I got pregnant I would just KNOW....I find it hard to believe I wouldn't.

So I am pretty sure I had a touch of OHSS (ovarian hyperstimulation syndrome). This is common among women taking fertility medication and although Clomid has a lower risk of OHSS, since I already ovulate and have normal hormone levels without medication the Clomid just increases everything. I had a feeling that is what all my symptoms were from (since obviously I can't have pregnancy symptoms the first 5 days after IUI but a girl can hope right??!!) and I am suppose to contact my RE if I have any symptoms of OSHH but I opted not too since I knew my situation wasn't severe so they won't really do anything other then monitor me and make me have a million ultrasounds at $125 a pop,  so not thank you I'll be just fine.

I went to the dollar store yesterday and bought 5 pregnancy tests....yes 5! And I will probably take a test everyday until it either becomes positive or my lovely period arrives...(because I'm crraaaaazz-yea, but crazy in a fun way, not like a lock me up in a padded room sorta way) which means I very well may be making another trip to the dollar store soon. And in case you're wondering yes the dollar store pregnancy tests really do work, I've done a ton of research on them and they work almost as well as the First Response tests that cost considerably more.  I have never had a false positive with them but HAVE had false positives with Clearblue dye tests.....and they are EX-PEN-SIVE! They have horrible evaporation lines that show up almost instantly and since they are blue dye tests it is hard to tell if they are faint blue lines or grey evaporation lines. In fact any blue dye tests are horrible, I had a false positive with another brand (can't remember which one) that even my husband was convinced was a positive.....Much to our disappointment a First Response showed not even a shadow of a line and that day I swore off blue dye tests forever.

On a happy note throughout all of my possible pregnancy anxiety I have kept a pretty positive attitude and I am still holding out hope for a miracle!  The hubby and me had a great weekend this last weekend, the weather was gorgeous (which is miracle all in it's self in Washington) and so we had a play day downtown Seattle followed by a productive day on Sunday in the garden.  On Wednesday I got to spend another sunny day with my mom in Snohomish, a cute little town filled with adorable boutiques and fun antique stores. It was her 57th birthday (if she knew I was announcing that on my blog I'm sure she'd kill me! If you ever read this... sorry mom, love you!!) and I only hope that at her age I look half as good. Maybe for Mother's day (in 2 days) I will be able to tell her she's going to be a grandma.....one can hope, because how cute would that be?!