Well it's just like life to wait until you have come to terms with one thing and then it throws you another challenge.......
Challenge......that is one thing I'm becoming familiar with. So where to start? Well first of all my wishing and hoping to by some miracle to be one of those women who become pregnant miraculously just as they are about to start fertility treatment....ya that wasn't me. I might be upset by that except it appears to be a blessing in disguise.
So my husband is currently in the military, he has been a recruiter (which has kept him home!!) for the last 3 years of his 10 years in. Our plan was for him to be getting out in July and getting onto the police department.....we have been wanting to start a family and he was done having to leave (and so was I!!) Well it appears that this economy has everyone under the sun trying to get hired onto the police department. And I do mean everyone.....so there we were a few months back proudly telling everyone our "plan" at a family gathering and turns out my cousin had also applied to all the agencies my hubby had.....not to mention the room full of people he shared the testing room with....90% former military. So after many tears, heated discussions & anxious months later we have made the decision for him to re-enlist. It's the right choice for us, we both know that, but it didn't make the decision any easier. Re-enlisting means going back on a carrier, going back on a carrier means leaving for 6 months...leaving for 6 months means a significant road block in our baby making not to mention how much I'll miss him! It has a lot of positives though as well, like our amazing benefits we receive, medical (although nothing for fertility treatments), dental, discounts on a ton of other things, not mention retirement, stable future and college money for our children (some day it just has to happen!) And we are lucky enough to have a marriage strong enough to make it through the tough times. So I'm trying to stay positive and be a big girl about the whole thing, I'm trying to keep my emotions in check and think of all the positive things about the choice we've made, for my husbands sanity and my own. So at this point it looks like hubby is set to be stationed in Bremerton (because the ship in Everett is full...bummer!!) and he will be leaving for a 6 month deployment this July (coming home in Jan 2012). I have mixed feelings about that, part of me can't believe we just made the decision and now he will be leaving so soon and part of me is glad it's soon because that means it will be over soon and it gives me less time to dwell on him leaving.
So what does that do for our fertility plan?? Well that is most definitely the question at hand. We are still waiting for the results of the sperm analysis which I should know either today or Monday. Then we will know if we are going to be doing IUI or IVF. If the decision is IUI then I believe we have decided to start in April instead of this month because I want to make sure i would be due after he arrives home, we would have about 3 attempts IUI before he leaves and if they work I would be due anywhere from mid-January to mid-March. I think I would be a little nervous about my due date being mid-January because he potentially not make it home in time since we don't know exactly what date he would be getting home yet. In a perfect world being due in March would be perfect! Yes he would miss the beginning of my pregnancy but he would have time to experience the last 3 months of it before the baby came.....which is when it is most exciting for the men usually anyway right? I mean they can actually feel the kicks and stuff at that time and it involves them a little more. Ummm listen to me though!! I must be insane for even entertaining the idea that we could somehow suddenly plan when we become pregnant! One can still hope though right?
So things are just a tad up in the air right now and just when I thought we had a plan in place we have to readjust our way of thinking again. The pressure is on for everything to fall into place but I honestly believe that sooner or later things have to work out for us and maybe it will be our time soon.
I am anxiously optimistic!
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