Where did we leave off?

Well lets see where did we leave off?  Oh yes, the lovely cramps I woke up to on Mother's Day morning.  That was a less than nice surprise.

I had so many adorable ideas if I was pregnant this month.....one of them being to tell my mom and mother-in-law that they were going to be grandma's....no suck luck. Mother's Day came and went and I didn't get to share that news.  My husbands 29th birthday is the 14th of this month also and I was planning on taking a test and if it was positive keeping it a secret until his birthday and then wrapping up a little newborn onesie that reads "I love my daddy" or something equally corny and cute.  I mean when you have been trying for almost 2 years you have a lot of time to think about these things.....all the cute ways you'll tell everyone, how you'll surprise your husband with a candlelit dinner and a positive pregnancy test. 



But........





the reality is on Monday when I saw this....................

All I could do was this......................

This isn't really from the day but I promise my reaction was similar with a few tears added, some intense shaking causing it to be difficult to even call my husband and a couple screams that had my dog a little concerned.

And sing this.....................

"Finally it has happened to me
Right in front of my face
My feelings can't describe it

Finally it has happened to me
Right in front of my face
And I just cannot hide it

Finally
Ooooooooh finally yeah yeah
Oh....................."

That was 2 days ago and pretty much everyone knows already.  I know, I know....you're suppose to wait until you're at least 12 weeks along in case anything happens. The problem with that is our family, friends, co-workers, friends of friends and even some complete strangers have become quite invested in our fertility struggles so we get questioned about it frequently.....for me daily. So it is hard to keep it a secret when everyone knows we are mid fertility treatment. To be honest I wasn't even quite aware of how much people were rooting for us until I started sharing the news.....the response was heartwarming and really special.......hugs, tears, jumping up and down, singing and some LOUD screams. It made me glad we choose to let people know this soon because anyone that is that happy for us to get pregnant, I want them to be there if *god forbid* something goes wrong.  My husband, Frankie (his name has been a blog secret until now!) is just as excited and happy as I am. When he says goodnight or goodbye he now says "I love you both". I am so excited to see him as a daddy!  My best friend, Meghan, who is a mommy to a very adorable 9 month little girl, has already got me the What to Expect When You're Expecting book. I have wanted to own that book foooorrreverrrr but wanted it to be something I got only after I knew I was pregnant. The first chapter is "before you conceive".........ya I think I could have a Masters degree in that chapter thank you.....skip!!

So I'm currently on cloud 9 and feeling great. I don't feel "pregnant" but I do feel a little different....I have been having some slight cramping (which I was told is perfectly normal) and "twinges" and I feel just slightly "off" but I am embracing every bit of it. I had a beta HCG lab draw yesterday to confirm what the 4 different home pregnancy tests (all 4 different brands because I didn't believe my eyes until the 4th one) told me.....I am indeed pregnant.  My beta level at 11 dpiui (days past IUI) was 62.5, which the nurse at my RE's office said was great since most people won't even have a positive test yet. My book tells me it should be anywhere from 5-50 at 3 weeks and I am 3 weeks, 6 days today.  I have another repeat beta on Friday to make sure my levels are doubling every 48 hours.  At 7 weeks I will have my first ultrasound and then my RE will release me to OB care.  I have fingers TIGHTLY crossed and saying my prayers that everything goes great and we have a healthy 9 months followed by a healthy baby.  I will admit it is a little nerve racking and I hope once I get my second beta level and hear the heartbeat I can relax a little......but I don't think we will be able to hear the heartbeat until 10 weeks, 6 more weeks.

I took some belly pictures today just for comparison later.  I assure you any lumps and bumps you see are au naturale.....currently what is in my tummy is only the size of a poopy seed.  We'll call this 4 weeks (since tomorrow is technically 4 weeks).

Don't judge my sweat pants it's 7:30am and my day off.

Well looks like hopefully this blog is going to be a pregnancy blog, at least until around 1-19-11.....my estimated due date.